Stupid post-viral tracheitus

I have been sick for 4 almost 5 months. I haven't been able to sing(well. ok i never sing well but sing to my normal ability). This makes me sad because I love to sing. Whenever I am feeling,well, anything there is always a song to go along with it. And I can sing along and either make the feeling go away or get better. I cant sing for more than 5 minutes without my throat hurting. stupid post viral tracheitis! but thats not even the worst part. My choir teacher told me that she had that and it ruined her voice. She can't sing for long at a time and she never really got better cuz her vocal cords were damaged. "awesome" im thinking. i might not be able to sing like i used to for the rest of my life. and now i think im getting something else. like coming down with a cold or something. i woke up this morning and my voice-the talking kind- was gone. again i think "awesome i cant talk now, or sing". it kinda came back but is very painful and scrathcy.I guess it didnt really bother me until we were greeting in church this morning and i was discussing speech with a speechers parent. Suddenly a terrifying thought hit me. "we have district large group speech contest on saturday!!!!!" at first i was excited but anxious. and then i realized that i cant talk. its speech!!!! and i cant talk!!!!! I HAVE TO YELL IN ONE ACT AND I CAN HARDLY TALK!!!!!!!!!!!! OH MY GOODNESS!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! FFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFFF MOTHER!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!GAAAAAAAAAAAAAAAHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! so in conclusion i am FREAKING out. and ive taken a vow of silence for the week. i will only talk when it is required. and i will not sing or even try :(