Senior year....

Right now i am feeling very lonely. its really strange because i think it has to do with being a senior. i only had two friends that were in the grade above me that i was super close with but i miss them a ton already! Beth- its only been a week since I've seen you but i feel so disconnected. and Jessie- you leave tomorrow :( so sad. i don't think i really like being a senior. I'm ready to be done with school and everything but I'm not really like being "the top dog" its just weird and hard to explain even to myself. I really am ready to get out of Audubon and start doing what i want to do and learning what i want to learn. this also stems from this: i want to be growing in my relationship with God and right now I am just stuck. I'm not moving forward, I'm not growing, or changing. and yes, this is my fault. but i just don't have the desire i used to have. i kinda feel like I'm in a rut and that it will get better when i get out of Audubon and into a Bible college. it just seems like my life's becoming this waiting game. I'm waiting until i figure out where i want to go to college. I'm just waiting to graduate. I'm just waiting til we have youth group again. I'm just waiting for a new youth pastor, or just something different, something better than right now. I'm waiting til I don't miss everyone so much anymore. I'm just waiting to find direction in my life. but through all this waiting, I'm much more hopeful than I have been in the past year.I hope and pray that God will guide me in what He wants me to do with my life, but lately I've been getting a little discouraged. Oh well, I will just keep waiting.

is getting tired of it all again. tired of nothing ever working out. why does it seem like things and people never come through? how difficult would it be to make this one thing work out? not for just me but for the others. i'm tired of hoping and then my hopes getting crushed. but that's life i guess. it just sucks.

I miss you.

One

You.


Can.

Only.

Type.

One.

Word.



No.

Explanations.



Not as easy as you might think…



1. Yourself: waiting

2. Your husband: someday

3. Your hair: ponytail

4. Your mother: gone

5. Your dog: dead

6. Your favorite item: car

7. Your dream last night: strange

8. Your favorite drink: da-ha-ha-ha

9. Your dream car: nice?

10. The room you are in: Tinder's

12. Your fear: hell

13. What you want to be in 10 years: His

14. Who you hung out with last night: renew

15. What you’re not: trusting

16. Muffin: chip

17: One of your wish list items: iTouch

18: Time: 1.5

19. The last thing you did: chorus

20. What you are wearing: clothes

21. Your favorite weather: spring

22. Your favorite book: Bible

23. The last thing you ate: sandwich

24. Your life: confusing

25. Your mood: eh

26. Your best friend(s): far

27. What are you thinking about right now? past

28. Your car: awesome

29. What are you doing at the moment?: quizzing

30. Your summer: busy

31. Your relationship status: His

32. What is on your TV?: nothing

33. What is the weather like?: rainy

34. When is the last time you laughed?: bowling

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