Numb

I haven't blogged in awhile. I just don't feel like it. I was really excited at first but now I just don't know what else to say. I'm in a sad mood constantly. It just doesn't go away. Even the memories that are supposed to make me happy and smile dont. They just make me worse. I think part of it is winter. It just so nasty out and puts me in a bad mood. Stupid snow. I guess I'm also not trying to be happy. I guess I just want to stay this way cuz I'm afraid I will forget. I know it's silly cuz I can never forget what brought me here even if I wanted to. Im kind of numb. UGH!!!