Sometimes

I decided that before I put any of my depressing and sad writing on here I better post this song. It's one of my favorite songs. Skillet has yet again found the perfect lyrics that I relate to fully. So here they are. I will bold the parts that really hit home for me.

Sometimes by Skillet

Sometimes when I lie
I know you’re on to me
Sometimes I don’t mind
How hateful that I can be

Sometimes I don’t try
To make you happy
I don’t know why I do the things I do to you but…

Chorus
Sometimes I don’t wanna be better
Sometimes I can’t be put back together
Sometimes I find it hard to believe
There’s someone else who could be
Just as messed up as me

V2
Sometimes don’t deny
That everything is wrong
Sometimes rather die
Than to admit it’s my fault

Sometimes when you cry
I just don’t care at all
I don’t know why I do the things I do to you but…

Bridge
I want someone to hurt
Like the way I hurt
It’s sick but it makes me feel better

V3
Sometimes I can’t hide
The demons that I face
Sometimes don’t deny
I'm sometimes sinner sometimes saint.

Here's some of my own "sometimes"(please don't judge me and be scared)
-Sometimes I don't want to try
-Sometimes I want to give up
-Sometimes I just want what I want-no matter who I hurt
-Sometimes I am selfish beyond belief
-Sometimes I think everyone hates me.
-Sometimes I want to do something incredibly stupid like drink or have sex or cutting just to show that I can and I that I'm not some boring prick that does nothing wrong.
-Sometimes I am funny.
-Sometimes I dont feel loved.
-Sometimes I wish things would just go back to the way they used to be when I was truly happy. And that was the last time Dave, Willie, Haley, Jessie, Amanda, Rachael, Riley, and Maddie were all together and having fun and learning. Without all of us there things just feel empty.
-Sometimes I doubt-ok- I doubt a lot.
-Sometimes I hate myself.
-Sometimes I hate.
-Sometimes all I want to do is curl in a ball and die.
-Sometimes all I have the strength to do is bawl.
-Sometimes I am incredibly happy.
-Sometimes I think I have depression. Like the real stuff.
-Sometimes I look forward to the future just so I can get away from the present.
-Sometimes I am shallow.
-Sometimes I take my frustration out by lashing out at people(I apologize).
-Sometimes I say incredibly stupid things.
-Sometimes I hate being a Christian.
-Sometimes I am a human being.