My First Blog-oh boy!

Well obviously I'm new to this whole "blogging" thing. So bear with me. I decided to get a blog for a few reasons. First is because I love to write. I write when I am happy, sad, angry, confused, hurt, and just everything. Writing is how I express myself. If I care about you, I will probably write about you or actually write you something. I believe that I am blessed with my writing because it helps me make some sense of the world and the mess inside of my head. Second reason for blogging-I want to help people. I am hoping by doing this blog I can reach someone. It would be one of the highest honors if someone is struggling and my words can get them through the day, the week, the month, the year, whatever. I hope someone can relate to what I have to say. Third reason- I'm tired of hiding. Like I said, I write. But I hide it. Many times I am dying to share it with someone, anyone really. but I'm scared of what they will think of me. So I have decided to blog. I really don't know how it's going to go. I hope it's a release for my pent-up feelings. I feel released when I write but then again I don't because I don't show anyone. So it's really pointless to write if I don't tell anyone about it. I want to be honest about how I feel. Anyway- I hope I can help you and help myself by blogging. Ummm. What else to say. I'm a Christian. That's the biggest thing you need to know about me. I love God. but the other major thing you need to know is I'm also a person. I mess up. I get angry at God. Honestly right now I'm not happy with God. But I love Him and praise Him anyway. Because He is my everything-forever. I wouldn't be the person I am without my Lord and Savior. I'm going to stop there for this post because I plan on doing a post about my faith later. Ok the last thing I need to say is actually a disclaimer. I can't promise that everything I write is going to make your day or make you feel better. Because I'm kind of a train wreck right now. I can't promise that everything I write won't scare you. As I said I'm going to try to be honest. For me that means not censoring my writing. If I'm in a fury then you will get to read about my fury. My thoughts scare me sometimes. So i can only imagine what they may do to you. The one thing I will promise is that I will only post what I am really feeling and thinking. My blog is titled the Broken and the Blessed for a reason- It describes me completely. If you want to know who I am that's it. I am broken.Sometimes I feel I'm broken beyond repair. I am blessed- I know that I am blessed beyond my wildest dreams. All I am asking of you is to not be too quick to judge me. Because this whole blog thing might be a bumpy ride. So lets go!

-BB
p.s.- BB is my nickname. Stands for Baby Burgin.